This is a record of hate far more than of love," Writes maurice bendrix in the opening passages of, and it is a strange hate indeed that compels him to set down the retrospective account of his adulterous affair with Sar...This is a record of hate far more than of love," Writes maurice bendrix in the opening passages of, and it is a strange hate indeed that compels him to set down the retrospective account of his adulterous affair with Sarah miles. Now, a year After Sarah's death, bendrix seeks to exorcise the persistence of his passion by retracing its course from obsessive love to love-hate.